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Stream of consciousness II

I think I’ll try writing down my thoughts as they come once again, as in Stream of consciousness, a recent post of mine. There will be no backspacing of any kind while I write this, except to correct typos. (Apparently I also need to think about my sentences before writing them. That first one was horrendous.)

So it’s February, guys. Already. Tomorrow is Groundhog Day, Joyce‘s birthday, and Scotto‘s birthday, and February 2. Luke probably wouldn’t let me get away without mentioning that tomorrow is James Joyce’s birthday. Case in point: He’s been carrying around a copy of Ulysses and is planning on attending a reading of it after school tomorrow. They’ll probably use his copy, even.

This is going to be a difficult subject to discuss all in one shot, but I’ll try. I’m planning on asking out a girl to the Valentine’s Day Dance. No, she is not my secret crush (?), nor is she the lesbian, nor is she the girl I almost went out with. This is one girl that, in terms of liking, has been on my mind by far the longest. I’ve only mentioned her a scant few times in this blog over the two and a half years that I’ve known her because I couldn’t act on my feelings — she was seeing someone. I don’t know if she is now — she very well may be — but if she’s not, then I’ll tell you who she is (assuming, of course, that she accepts my offer; there are two conditions at work here: she has to be single, and she has to say yes. Otherwise, it’s a no-go, and I won’t tell. You don’t need to know about a failed crush, anyway.)

This is the way I see it: if she has a boyfriend already (which, if I haven’t mentioned it, is extremely likely), then the worst thing that can happen to me is that his opinion of me would probably drop a bit, if he knows me. On the other hand, if she is single and says yes to me, then, well, I have the world to gain. Potentially. It would be nice to act on these feelings I’ve had basically off and on for two and a half years. And maybe if she rejects me, then it can serve as some kind of closure. I guess all of you understand me when I talk about these things, as you have all done these things before. Well, the guys will understand, because they’re usually the ones who do the asking and stuff. The girls will probably laugh at how naive I am. The guys will too.

But you all have to understand that I love that feeling you get when you’re in love, sorta. I meant it when I had said I was the happiest guy in the world at one point. Another thing that makes me happy is that this site is currently the #1 result on Google for “happiest guy in the world” — without the quotes.

I wonder if this is how a lot of people write posts on LiveJournal — without thinking it through, I mean. Maybe that’s why so many LiveJournals are incomprehensibly bad. (I’m not talking about any of the nine LJs that I read regularly, of course. My friends and acquaintances all have the good sense to care about things like spelling and grammar. That’s why I like ‘em. Well, many of them do, anyway. Some of them. If you’re reading this, then probably you.)

Here’s an old (1946) documentary/propaganda-type film about despotism (Flash, sound).

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One year ago: “If I were more able to express my emotions, I’d be hyperventilating or something.”